Some unmotivated motivaton...

So, I often get into this way of thinking. Probably doesn't make much sense, unmotivated motivation. For me, it's my Mt. Everest. I have the desire to do soooooo much, but I it's tough to find the time, or the will. So I've found that by taking baby steps, I am slowly becoming the wife/mother/person that I want to be. I know I'll never be perfect, but it doesn't hurt to try to be the best at the things I can do.

1.God

My family would be very disappointed in me for this one. I have really let my relationship with God fall short for several years now. This is currently the biggest thing that we as a family (Z & I) have to work on. While we have never stopped believing or praying, we need to put more time and effort into church and loving the Lord.

2. Finances

This matter, I believe is very important in the success of any marriage. I know that personally, in our marriage; money is the cause of quite few arguments. It's important to stay on a budget and work on saving for the long term and setting your life up to succeed. I have grown multitudes in my financial responsibility, it hit me when I got pregnant that it wasn't just about me anymore. Since then I've strive to not over spend and save on the things we do buy. We're not quite where we'd like to be, but we're close and I'm so thankful for that.

3. The Person

Who do I want to be? Me. The greatest version of ME that I can be.

I want to be the wife that a husband can come home to and hold in his arms and thank God for.

I want to be the homemaker that is an amazing cook, who is incredibly crafty and keeps her home spotless and perfectly decorated.

I want to be the mother that packs her child's lunch everyday and leaves a sweet note inside. The mom who takes her kids to school and picks them up ever day. Who hosts loads of children for a sleepover and plans a fun night of games and crafts and yummy food. Who goes to every practice, game, recital, talent show. Who's children will always feel like they can come to her, trust her, rely on her...for anything at anytime.

I want to be the friend that is always completely supportive and non-judgemental. Who you know that no matter the time, will answer the phone or open the door. Someone that you can count on, through good or bad, thick and thin.

Most importantly, I want to be a woman of God. Who radiates His spirit and thinks with his mind, loves with his heart, listens with his ear and sees through his eyes.

3. Philanthropist

We don't my any means have a lot of money. I do however feel that we have enough to give a little back. I want to make the effort to tithe properly and find other organizations that are close to our hearts. To give our time as well as our money, to help where it's needed.

4. Image

I love to feel put together, at all times. Somehow it triggers contentment, and I absolutely radiate confidence. I will devise a plan that somehow includes:

- A mani and pedi weekly, done by myself.

- My own take on a facial should also be a weekly occurrence.

- Hair done every 8 weeks, no exceptions.

- Gym five days a week (haha, yeah right...maybe 3).

I must pull through this post pregnancy "yuck" phase and get back to my old self.

5. Success

I want to be something. A wife and mother, always and first. Eventually though, I will have to work again, so it would be nice to have a plan. I really have to do some soul searching here. For now I will work on mastering my crafts and try to sell those.


Finally, brothers, good-by. Aim for perfection, listen to my appeal, be of one mind, live in peace. And the God of love and peace will be with you. 2 Corinthians 13:11